| Hmmm well i havent updated in a while so yea....well i hope that everyone had a GREAT thanksgiving break..........mine was okay i went to INDY...... to be with my family it was great seeing then and then on thanksgiving i went shopping and bought me a T.V. but yea ya that was FUN then on FRIDAY i woke up at like 4:30 and went shopping and OMG it was COLD.......but yea i got sum really good deals i got a digital camera and I AM LOVIN it ill get sum pics up soon but yea then SATURDAY i just hung out around the house and relaxed but yea then SUNDAY we left to come back to GA....and then yea that was my break.....MONDAY i was at school then went over to kyle's and saw his stepdad, mom, and bo it was great seeing then i missed em so yea then TUESDAY went home sick.....and slept then saw evan for a lil while ...... and TODAY i and dunno nuttin really i got to babysit but that is about it.........
   
The truth is I miss you with all my heart and I can't stand the sound of your name because it hurts too much. The fact that I may never see you again makes it even worse. I was and still am completely and utterly in love with you. You make me feel like no one else can. You always know how to make me smile and not one of those fake smiles I always have on, but one of those that when you're around, I can never seem to get rid of and the worst thing is that when you push me away or I feel that way, you're hurting me, hurting us and every time I see you, I just want to jump in your arms, in hopes that things will be okay. But now that you're gone, and maybe not coming back, I need you to know, just how much I love you and just how much, I need you and pray that you do that right back. I hope you hear this because will all my heart, I love you. I miss you. I need you. And I'm not afraid to tell you.
    
I've been through so much with you, more than any other guy, and I still want you as much as I did the first time I layed eyes on you. Every time I see you, it's like meeting you for the first time all over again. It's the butterflies in the stomach, the not knowing what to say, but out of all the things you've taught me, there's still one thing I don't know. I don't know how to fall out of love with you. I don't know how to let go and as I stand here looking at you, I wonder if there will ever be a day when I will get over your smile, when I will let go of the hugs you gave me that I continue to feel. A day when I forget the words you said to me, forget what you meant to me or forget how much I love you. But, no matter what you did to me or whatever happens to us, I know I could never get over, let go, or forget you. When you care about someone as much as I/do you, being apart is the hardest thing to get used to. I thought I'd handle it just fine and that I'd be happy just to keep you on my mind. But it isn't always that easy. Sometimes the one thing that would please me the most is simply seeing you. I knew that I'd miss you I just didn't know I'd miss you as much as I do. I want to share my tears with you. I want to share my love with you. I want to share my happiness with you. I want to share my strength with you, my smiles, my frowns, my joy, my loss, my good days, my bad days, the rain, the sunshine, hot cocoa, and the snowflakes. I want to share my life with you. People can just be best friends, but at one point or another, one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe just maybe forever, and that's what happened with me and you.
    
LOTS OF LOVE<3
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